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Burning arrows with a song,
That in a sense is innocence,
Let words tangle
Their tongues, wayward and bitter
And brittle little sways of wet muscle
And breath that smells all too tell-tale
Of assumption.
So archers stay their tendons hard
To listen for the siren's song
And pray that none of them has left the music
As so many tend to do.
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my five year plan
day one
at least once a day, I mistake a boy for a girl. the truth could take five years to write, and I think it probably will. at least once a month, you mistake my "i'm okay"s for "okay, I'm not doing so good"s. this is a matching test. this is a matching test without a word bank. this is sucks-to-be-you-because-you-didn't-study-you-spent-your-night-being-a-manwhore-again. let me know if you're really satisfied with fractions of many girls as opposed to the entirety of me that I'm offering to you.
month three, week two
I'm unsatisfied with my eyebrow arches, my jaw line, my cheekbones, and having someone care so much one minute and completely neglecting me the next. you are an ulcer. you are bipolar. you are a lot like my cup: I thought the grip I had on you was tight enough, but it wasn't. I dropped it. now it's broken.
week thirty-five
you fucked my life up. you fucked my life down. you fucked my life sideways, upside down, and on teeter totters, when you teetered lightning bolts
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secrets left in library books.
i have redone
my personality and my
heart and my life and
all the things
in between. the only thing
that is not worth redoing
is us.
my heart had a
‘do not enter’
mat on it, but you
never knew how to
listen, did you?
you promised me
happiness, but
if this is happiness,
you can have it
my shadow has
always been
prettier than me.
you twirled me around,
in the park, once.
you said we will
reach the stars, sweetheart.

i wish i had known
you meant the
my heart used
to do this funny
thing for you.
now, it only
for itself.
i always thought
seven was magical,
like fairytales.
but then you took an
eraser to both.
i stay awake
just to stop the
nightmares from
(it never works.)
i will admit this:
i never deserved you.
(but then,
you never deserved
me, either.)
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i used to hold you close in the hopes that you'd keep me warm.
it worked physically, but my heart always felt colder; heavier afterwards.
you never liked to hold me, anyway.
you and i are not the same.
you like it when the rain falls, and you like being startled when its peace is interrupted by thunder. you like trying to catch the rain in a bucket; you try to 'save' it from colliding with the ground.
i only like to watch it fall.
you are beautiful when you cry; when your body shakes uncontrollably with sobs you can't hold in. you are open when you cry, and i can see past the marble mask you put up and i feel like i know you.
but i am only broken when i cry.
if i could hand you my heart, i would; you would never trust me with yours.
you think you can shape broken things and the broken people - people like me. you think we are like clay and you can make us into what you want. you think there's a mold that we will one day confine to; give in to. you believe you can
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United States
Current Residence: Santa Barbara, California.
deviantWEAR sizing preference: As small as possible. ^^
Favourite genre of music: Electronica.
Favourite style of art: Imagery of any sort.
Operating System: XP.
MP3 player of choice: My custom 120 gig Zune. <3
Wallpaper of choice: Uncluttered, but not quite minimalist.
Personal Quote: "You're going to read THE GRAPES OF WRATH?!" "Well.. Just one of them.." -
I realize I need to start doing more artsy stuff, and probably do so rather soon.

Just because I realize all of this, doesn't necessarily mean I'll act on it, but I'm gonna try.

Try to do something worthwhile with my time.
So that I have an application portfolio for Cornell.


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OGHenderson Featured By Owner May 25, 2011
You realise niyakutanda means I love you in ndebele? Cool name :)
Did you realise this when you chose it?
Niyakutanda Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2012
Replying almost a year later, yes.
But, that is in fact why I chose it. (:
Zane-Kunning Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2010

Thinking of you :)
Niyakutanda Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2010
Man I love you.

My love!
You know he's in Venezia now.
So much fun.
I'm a gondoliering ninja.
HatefulDreamer Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2010
Thanks for the :+fav: and watch! :D
Niyakutanda Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2010
Most definitely! :D
Zane-Kunning Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2010
Thanks for the fav, my beautiful ex-wifey :D
SweetJinxedNothings Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2010  Student General Artist
Thanks for the add to your favorites, I'm glad that you liked my poem.
Niyakutanda Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2010
Of course. (:
VintageHoliday Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2010
Look at my photography baby fork!!
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